The Life of Me

Well, Christmas has come and gone, and another year has gone by, and I have to say it has been a good year.  Today I spent the whole day watching old video tapes with my dad and making them into DVDs.  It really brought back a lot of memories...I laughed some and I cried some.  We have videos from the time I was 5 days old, my first Christmas, until, well, now.  We got through 1999 before we decided to call it quits for the day.  It was weird to see how I have changed over the years, and how I'm still the same.  I was so wild as a child, I couldn't sit still, all I did was run around singing and being completely crazy.  I'll just say I got in trouble of a lot because I tended to be very stubborn and didn't want to listen to anyone, I always wanted to do things myself the way I wanted it to be.  My dad asked me today if it was a bad thing that he "took the spirit out of me."  I really don't think the spirit I had was taken out of me, I have just learned more how to control it, even though sometimes I wish I wasn't afraid, I was never afraid of anything when I was younger...but now I can't say that...I'm know I'm not much of a leader and I wish I was...but I'll do just about anything people tell me to.  Once in a while I do have moments where I go a little crazy like I used to.  Anyway, it was good to compare myself now and how I used to be because sometimes I feel like I'm not really myself anymore, but I see that really I am, just a calmer myself.

Yesterday I finally saw The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe.  It was very good, it met all my expectations, actually it was better than I thought it would be. I read the books when I was little, actually my dad read the first couple to me, that is why I waited till I got home to see it, so we could go together.  I have read them many times since then, they have become some of my favorite books so I was really worried I be disappointed with the movie, but I wasn't.  I just really hope they make movies for all of them now.  Well, I rambled on for long enough now, I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas!!

I just want to say I love Jack Johnson...I was totally having a bad day...I had to work and it was so long and I was just really tired...but then there on the TV is Jack Johnson and it just really made my day...yay...it was just what I needed after such a long day.  And Bubble Toes just came on and it is sooo my favorite and makes me oh soooo happy...yay!!!!  Move Like A Jellyfish!!!!

So anyways...it has just been such a long weekend....my parents came as well as my uncle and aunt...it was good to see them all though.  And then of course the football game yesterday which was just really poopy.  And then today I had work and I was really tired already...I don't really know why I was so tired...but I really was.  I am just really busy right now with work and school and band...but I really can't talk because I know everyone else is really busy as well.  I really just wrote really like a billion times just then...haha...thanks to Daniel!!!  Okay...that is enough...I could right more but I don't want to and I don't want to make it too long, so goodnight!!

So today Lesley and I went to play racquetball and were doing pretty good...we had played for about an hour when I twisted my ankle trying to get to the ball and then fell of my butt.  I thought I was fine until I put pressure of my leg and my hip and ankle hurt really bad so I went to sit out.  Lesley then decided she was going to hit the ball around some by herself.  She was doing really good when all of a sudden she fell and twisted up her ankle.  After that we both decided it would be best to take the rest of the night off so we both went out of the Payne center hobbling.  It was funny because we both looked so pitiful and both hurt our ankles on the same night but on the other hand it really really hurt both of us....now we have swollen ankles....poo on that.  I really like to play that game though...it was really only my second time playing it and I enjoy it so much...and I'm not that bad at it...I mean, I am bad...but it could  be worse.  Alright...time for bed now to rest my poor ankle...goodnight.

So I haven't done much today besides laundry and practicing.  I was way behind on my laundry so that took up the majority of the morning.  Today has been a relaxing day that's for sure.  I guess everyone needs those once in a while...especially after yesterday...marching band practice...racketball...and then the football game...but it was all fun.  I'm glad things are going well...even though a little boring sometimes like today...but it is better than chaos.  I've got plenty to do though during the week...and I should of done more today...like the time-line I have due in Elementary methods Tuesday...I guess I will do it tomorrow...I am always the one to procrastinate. 

I just read what I wrote and it is random and boring...but that is my mind today.  Well...tonight should be fun..yay!!!

Down in Flames by Mindy Smith

I don't usually take chances
Most would easily agree
Something in your eyes
Is saying you can ease my hearache
I have a burden in sight
And I know you're just a stranger
If you cannot understand
There's too many times
I've lost my chance to talk with an angel
Too many to count

And life's so hard
It's the little things that seem to be getting me today, yeah
Life's so hard
But I'm doing what I can to not to be getting down
I'm going down in flames
Going down in flames

I would tell you I am happy
If I wasn't so damn sad
And the loneliness both overwhelms and keeps me empty
That's how it's been for a while

And life's so hard
It's the little things that seem to be getting me today, yeah
Life's so hard
But I'm doing what I can to not to be getting down
I'm going down in flames
Going down in flames

I need some direction
I need someone to listen
Someone to tell me that they know

That life's so hard
It's the little things that seem to be saving me today, yeah
Life's so hard
And I'm doing what I can
Oh, yeah, I'm doing what I can
Hey, I'm doing what I can
Going down in flames
Going down in flames

Yay....I am so excited I get to go back to Hattiesburg tomorrow!!!!!  It seems like this "break" has been such a long time.  I did enjoy getting to spend some extra time with my family but it is time to get going and back to the life of college.  I have so much to do though when I get back...buy books, pick up my check!!!!, go pick up my parking permit (no I still haven't done that), and a lot more.  And then Saturday is the Alabama game which should be a lot of fun.  I have really enjoyed marching band this year which is not something I thought I would ever hear myself say...but it really has been fun...the activities, the volleyball, the bbq, and even those of us who stuck together during the hurricane.  This year started out really good and I hope it only gets better.  Yay...I really am just so excited and ready for school to start back...and orchestra...I love orchestra and this season is really good...even though I still have to audition!!!!  I did go shopping today though and bought some brown dressy shoes...that was really random...but it made me happy.  Okay...well, that is all the randomness I can come up with for one night...see everyone soon!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know how to start this entry...just Hurricane Katrina.  I stayed in Hattiesburg because there was no way I could get home...most of the roads I needed to take were closed.  Me, Lesley, Erin, Jessica, Michael, Sean, and Bobby decided that we were going to stay in the PAC to ride it out.  We get there Sunday night...unload all of our stuff...and the campus police come...they tell us we have to get out because we were trespassing...one of them even laughed at us which I thought was very rude.  So, we packed up all of our stuff again and all headed to mine and Lesley's apartment.  We all slept on the floor in the living room waiting for it to come.  About 7:00 the next morning we all pop awake because we hear this big gust of wind.  None of us could go back to sleep after that so we all just sit around waiting.  About an hour later the power goes out.  We would periodically go outside when the wind wasn't too bad to go check things out.  At first we would go play in the rain but it eventually got too bad to do that.  It was so boring so we decided to play cranium...about this time Bryan decided to come over because his ceiling was caving in in his apartment...so after just a few minutes of cranium it starts to get really bad...we look outside to see shingles and shutters flying around everywhere...we were getting really close to the eye wall.  Then all of a sudden we hear this loud breaking noise and then a crash...the chimney on the apartment next to us had just crashed to the ground and the one beside it looked like it was about to go as well.  My biggest fear was that the chimney was going to blow into our sliding glass door so I started praying.  I gave Michael my video camera and Sean had Lesley's...they were determined to get the other chimney falling on one of the videos.  So we are just sitting around in the apartment when we hear the people outside starting to yell...Michael runs into the apartment and screams "Get into the hallway...NOW!!!"  So I ran in there but didn't stay long because I wanted to see what was going on...they thought they had seen a tornado or something and they thought they the chimney right next to us was about to fall into our roof...It didn't though...but the chimney across from us fell and they did get that on video.  We were in the eye wall now and it got pretty bad...I mean...it was a category 3 when it came through Hattiesburg and the eye went right up 59 which is right next to our apartment...then it finally calmed down after what seemed like forever...it was the eye but the hurricane had fallen apart a little so it wasn't cloudless like it is supposed to be.  After that went through there wasn't much left...we got a little but it wasn't bad at all.  It was an experience though.  My apartment was one of the few that didn't get roof damage...a lot of the chimneys came off...some of the ceilings caved in...it wasn't very pretty...but the only damage we had was out living room carpet was soaked and the laundry room flooded some...but we were very lucky...our apartment was safe and more importantly all of us staying there were safe.  We all stayed in the apartment again that night because there was no way out.  The next morning we got up and I went with Michael and Sean to go look around the campus...I got some pretty good pictures of the damage but they are on my other computer.  The water went out in the apartment later that day...we were lucky to have water as long as we did.  All of the guys left to go home so it was just me, Lesley, and Erin.  Then Eleyna came and stayed as well.  It was so hot though.  Yesterday I left at around 1:45 to come back home.  It took so long to get here though...I didn't want to leave but there wasn't much to do with no water or power.  Mobile was a mess to get through...it took hours to get through and over the bayway.  I didn't get home until around 9:00 that night.  Over 7 hours when it usually takes 5.  I hope everyone else is safe along with their family and friends.  Everyone enjoy this break from school and God bless.  Sorry for the really really long entry.

So I've been at home for a while now.  Friday night I went out with some of my friends from high school to eat at TGIFridays's and then we went out to the beach to play put put golf (which I am really horrible at!!!!)  It was fun remembering my high school days.  Saturday my family and I went to Georgia to visit my Mema and my brother and nephew and the rest of my Georgia relatives that came over.  It was good to see them, I hadn't seen my brother since Christmas which is way too long.  We went to my Uncle's house over there to see his miniature horses...they are so cute...and they had a six week old pony that looked just like a My Little Pony.  It was sooo little....smaller that any  dogs that are kinda big.  So that was fun just getting to be with my family.  Yesterday I went to church.  I really miss going to church....I need to do it more often but I just haven't found one in Hattiesburg that feels right for me.  Then I got to go shopping which is always fun.  Yesterday was a very pretty day...it actually didn't rain...it did sprinkle a little tiny bit while I was out walking to they bay.  But other than that it was very pretty...now every other day hasn't been like that...it has rained soo much...it was even raining this morning when I got up.  Well...I think I am supposed to go to Pensacola today if Lesley ever calls me back...so I will finish getting ready now...just so much going on that I haven't found the time to write...have a good day and God bless.

Cassidy

Life is Wonderful by Jason Mraz

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes a word to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to you yawn brother
It takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

It takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes some dust to make it polished

Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is so full of
Ah la la la la la la life is so rough
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is our love
Ah la la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
It takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to know you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

I was debating putting this song on here...but I did because I really like it...but now my entry looks really really long.  Oh well!!!!

Well, I made it home a couple of nights ago...it was a good trip...except for the rain...and Pensacola where I was stuck in traffic for like an hour!!!!!  Yesterday I didn't really have much to do so I just decided to drive around places that I used to go and just see where the roads took me.  It was a lot of fun but the traffic was horrible...I sometimes complain about the traffic in Hattiesburg but this was like 20000 times worse!!!!  I had forgotten what real traffic was like...I mean, Panama City isn't that big compared to Mobile or Pensacola or anything but we sure do have a whole lot of people packed tight in this city.    It wasn't like I would get into traffic everyone once in a while...it was even pretty bad on the backroads.  But I did enjoy my little trip around town...I wanted to go to more places but it started to rain and my car has horrible windshield wipers...I  defiantly need to get them changed...so I just went back home...I think I brought the rain home with me because my parents said it usually doesn't rain that much.  When I come home I realize how much I miss home...things are just so relaxed around  here...no stress...no classes...it is just nice...to bad I don't get to make it home that often.

Oh yeah, I saw the saddest thing on the news yesterday...that just made me think of the Jack Johnson song...but anyways...yesterday was the first day of school here in Bay County.  Well, the high school students here are allowed to go off campus for lunch as long as you are a junior or a senior.  So yesterday 2 students were trying to get back on campus at Mosley High School (not my high school) and they didn't see a car coming and turned at a red light....the vehicle crashed into the passenger side of the car and killed the girl sitting there...the girl in the drivers seat is hurt really bad.   I just thought that was so horrible...especially on the first day of school.  So I really don't know why I wrote about that...it just was on my mind so I did...I don't want to get anybody down or anything...so be HAPPY!!!   Well, I'm going to go see what Panama City holds for me today!!!  Everyone have a good day and God bless!!!

Cassidy

So I got my car this weekend and I really like it.  Today Lesley and I were driving around in my car and she was like we should go to New Orleans and I was like okay!!!!  That sounded really dumb...but anyways....we went on to the school to do a few things then we headed on down there in my car.  So when we got there we went to the mall and ate at Panda Express...yummy...then we just walked around the mall...bought fudge...really really yummy....then we just walked around some...drove around some...then left.   But  it really was a lot of fun...but then again we always have fun!!! Woo hoo...like oh my gosh!!!

Haha, I'm in a really dumb mood today!!  I go home in a couple of days and I really hope I have a lot of fun.  I have changed a lot since my high school days and I don't really know what people are going to think about me....since I really haven't hung out with anybody from home in about a year...and I have even changed a lot since then...things happen and people change...and I really think I have changed for the better thanks to some really good friends.  Anyway, some of my friends from home want to do stuff so we'll see how it goes. 

Well, I really can't think of anything else to say and this has gotten long enough already.  So have fun everyone and stuff!!!!

Cassidy